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Hi my darling,

I'm back on the Burg now, all unpacked and settled down to write you before going to
bed. I found four wonderful letters from you in my box tonight and 2 from my mom and
ones from my second mom too! It's so nice to come home after a long weekend to find
a stack of mail waiting-just puts a final flow on the day. And as I tally up on the
calendar I see that before you even get this we'll have less than 100 days to go we've
broken the big barrier and ti's the home stretch now least that's how I fell tonight! I
sure hope they pass quickly til when we can be in each other's arms again. I need you
so very much my darling. Life is just not complete without you.

I'm glad you're back to 8 hours sleep again after midterms and I know those 21 units
must be hell at such times. I'm glad you're taking fewer this spring and don't worry. I
wont let you take 21 when I'm around to distract you. For next fall I suggest you
pre-seg for about 12 or 13! I plan to take up a lot of your spare time! Say why
the? After French 23 are you sweating 22? Come on sweetheart spill the beans
good news or bad. After the little venture this summer over G3 you should know
that I love you not matter what and you don't have to keep such things from me.

Your letter giving your thoughts about religion was beautiful Anne. I've read it
over and over and I find so much in it. As you may have gathered from my letter
of Thursday or Friday religion is and has been pretty important in my life too as I've told
you before. I too had ideas and a sort of faith before I really began thinking about it.
But the real content of my religious life comes from about my junior year in high school
when I got active in the Presbyterian youth fellowship (before that I had gone
to Sunday school as a younger boy and then nothing but maybe Easter services for several
years.). I went into quite a bit of theology (in the summer after my freshman year at
college) and went to a couple of fine college conferences down at Forest Home near
Redlands. I had even then doubts as to my faith (as I guess everyone does of some kind)
it was important to me that things be logically consistent and thus reasonable I couldn't
go in for the emotions stuff as a few did but I did have some very deeply meaningful
personal experiences in prayer (and meeting though this was usually more intellectual) and
worship But during my sophomore year as I went to Westminster fellowship and took
part in some study groups with Dr. Good and as I went along in Western Cir much of
my experience became more mental [thereterical?] theological and therefore sort of impersonal
and also may of the ideas became less tenable as I learned more and thought more so
the intellectual side to which I turned became weaken and weaker. As I brought
the ideas of science and the progress in new fields of research (e.g. the structure of
the atom and building up of viruses and "life-like" forms as well as astronomy, etc.)
And my own basic skepticism together the ideas seemed even less attractive. Gradually
my energies turned away from the church entirely. One little incident I remember
in my thinkin' his when Cynnie Faissler (a Jr now she was in my CW ceminar), a
proud and professed atheist said that she didn't really think that religion was
the only source of good moral behavior that a person could be "good" just for it's
own sake without a system of religious "rewards and punishments" to motivate him.
This seemed particularly reasonable and mature (even coming from a cocky little
atheist pseudo intellectual) and I've come to realize that the part of religion which