Diary

a day of doing something different and myabe interestingly unusual.

In going out at night, I go to bars and to movies, plays, etc, and dining out.

Household chores include washing clothes, cleaning house, balancing the checkbook + keeping my accounting of money up to date (including working out with your housemate any resolution between him + me), making dinner (rare!), shopping for household needs, writing letters (or phoning, not really a chore), paying bills, etc.

From now on my morning time will probably consist of reading Time/etc 45 min, Busi Week/etc 45 min, prayer/thought 45 min, and some other reading for 45 min.

Sundays generally include day trips around New Mexico like to Taos, or painting a room, or going hiking, reading a full length book, etc.

I used to have a few bad habits but they may have passed. They included dirty movies, book stores, men's room loitering,

sleezy night spots, even most baths I consider bad but some, like 8709 in LA have redeeming qualities. I think I have gotten over most of them because they are just no fun. I want to have an open life and be free and have "beautiful" fun. Not sleezy happenings.

The fun things I enjoy doing and these happen primarily in afternoons when I should be working or on Sundays as just being out in the sun, swimming (nude beaches), body surfing, tennis, skiing, various athletics, being fairly good looking + being with others who are, hiking, camping, having friends over, parties; I like "down home" "country" "easy breezy" atmosphere. This goes for playtime only. Sometimes there are parties that are work. This should be realized and accounted against work. In these regards this past year has been excellent; though dull at times; this yields stability.

Now my work does get most of my quality attention and there are some topics which deal with it in this book. But I think some things are resolved

with respect to it. Of all the things in the world my primary work has been in computer software. I know a lot about it and I plan to stay close to it, though with perhaps getting an MBA. And I do enjoy software. There was a flurry of projects in high school, and EDITX grew out of this. Next I did 6800 Basic, then 6502 Basic and spent over a year in business being general mgr of MicroSoft. For the past year I have been a COBOL expert and have learned about marketing and technical management in more depth. I believe I will continue doing that for the next year. These two areas are the ones of greatest interest to me at this time.

Am I good at other things. I am certainly not as good at anything else as I am with computer software. I do have a BSEE but I've never practiced it. I aslo have had interests in social sciences and had activity in religion. But those are not strong points (yet).

I will learn to take risks from now on though I believe. However I will continue to work with software as long as it interest me, and so long as I can be paid well, as with the COBOL project. Nonetheless I feel I have quite great intelligence surpassing being "just" a programmer. I say "just" because my systems programming takes a lot of cleverness + skill. But at this time with the completion of COBOL-80 I feel I have studied and implemented all types of software and done everything except I must continue to work on the actual COBOL compiler and implement something in the procedure division, like ACCEPT/DISPLAY, or OPEN OPTIONAL on SELECT filename via data-name. But I've done all else and I'm afraid I may get bored. The PRIME thing that has kept me moving this year is that I am acting as a manager in the development of a project/product. This will probably continue for the next year or so.

I now have a good education, great general background (that keeps growing), great specific experience

with computers (which may have peaked) + business. I am successful, and have done loads of interesting things (both fun + work), and this appears to be continuing. I wanted a creative position with great social signif in the computer industry and boy do I have it. I have someplace to go with exciting things to do. I have goals to accomplish. I also have a good body + good looks, and a good social life, that hopefully will become exciting. I keep well-informed. I like my work, realizing of course that it is work.

So I am resolved to stay in software but I want to use my mind more, and come to understand people more. At this time a lot of busy work is involved but I should never do more than absolutely necessary. Less advanced people can do it and they enjoy it; I don't. Work is hard, remember, but it should exhilarate too.

As I have said several times, I must be enthusiastic and live by the edge. But this is how balances are reached by experimenting with extremes. I need to achieve and have great growth requirements. But I know the only way to gain confidence in anything is to try it. But grow at a healthy rate. Not too fast.

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