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LAST, BUT NOT LEAST THIS IS [highlight]MY FIRST DESIGN. I COULD REALLY FUCK UP, THERE IS A LOT OF RISK [/end highlight]

(Less likely to screw up if I keep my sights on it + let others code.)

I used to think that the fact that I am excited about Personal Accountant would make me more valuable to [Soft?] but it works the other way to, because it makes me want to work on it.

In my case, I reiterate, [highlight] the market should not concern me [/end highlight] one way or the other, as far as compensation goes. Sometimes I work on products with big markets, other times it's products with little markets. [highlight] The idea is that the stock option evens this out for everyone. [/end highlight]

Question is : [highlight] should I try to get more salary + stock? [comment]for long term[/comment] AND WHAT ABOUT MEN gay prof[?] ? NOT IN SOCIAL MOOD RIGHT NOW[/end highlight]

[box] I WANT TO DO PAC, AND YET I WANT A SPECIAL BONUS WHICH I HAVE NOW. IT WILL MAKES MY INCOME $100K. AFTER TAX ΔNET WORTH = $10K.

THE FACT THAT MARKET FOR PAC IS HUGE SHOULDN'T MAKE ME GREEDY, HBS SHOWED ME I'M NOT A BUSINESES-MAN. I AM A PROFESSIONAL SOFTWARE DESIGNER, AND WELL PAID FOR IT.[/end box]

Another question is : don't I mind that I'm creating all this from scratch + giving it away? It hurts [circled]while coding[/end circle][comment]so have others code it!![/end comment], but after that I can be infinitely patient. No market worries!

I have biggest salary + biggest options for a programmer. [comment]says BIll, at review [TH?] 11/17[/end comment]

Can't manage since I'm gay + can't handle it. BULLSHIT! TOUGH!

12/15/83

STRATEGY:

(1) DEC-MAR SPEC + INCENTIVE BONUS FOR 3 MONTHS. WORK HARD. LEARN MTOOLS + ENV'T.

(2) APR-JUN GET PRODUCT + BOOK DONE 3 M[BOX]SHOW OFF[/BOX] SOME MONEY. BUY HOUSE TOO COOKING, CHESS, VACATION. [?], ETC

(3) LONG TERM FOLLOW-ON PRODUCTS DEVELOPED THROUGH OTHERS. DO A PRODUCT LINE GET MORE STOCK {insert}AT MAY REVIEW{insert} OPTIONS FOR LEADING OTHERS.

(4) USE KNOWLEDGE OF BASIC AND COBOL TO ACQUIRE BUSINESS APPLICATIONS, AND DEVELOP THEM TOO THROUGH OTHERS.

WHY AM I DOING THIS?

-- I'M NOT LEARNING C, XENIX, PCDOS SO THAT'S NOT THE REASON -- I'M DESIGNING A PRODUCT LINE IT'S MY FIRST DESIGN {insert}DESIGNERS SHOULD [box]MANAGE[/end box] IMPLEMENT. -- LOTS OF FOLLOW-ON WORK -- LEADERSHIP OF OTHERS THEN ON SOMETHING I'M EXCITED ABOUT UNLIKE LANGUAGES, OP SYS, ETC -- THEN THERE WILL BE TIME TO SETUP A HOUSEHOLD.

* Based on DEC 7 writing and the way things turned out by 12/15

BUT WAIT!!

Whatever happened to my need to manage Now. I know C Now. I won't learn any more by coding. The sooner I start managing people, the sooner I'll become more [box]human[/end box]. And the financial incentiveto manage is that my # of stock [box]options[/end box] will increase, which is much better than more income, especially when taxes are considered!

After I do the spec, I must (1) guide development (2) write user doc'n (3) plan follow on products (4) work with author

The sooner I get more options, the sooner I'll feel better about buying a house + [box]household.[\end box]

I'm 30 now. Newest 3 year phase just started. NO MORE CODING! I did SORT to learn C, to manage coders NOW! I shouldn't start into this project coding. It will be much harder to change later... And I won't have to dehumanize myself for now and the next 3 months

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