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be killed; but it eneded fatally for the other man, & this
is the only thing I regret in my husbands life. it was be-
fore I married him, & daily do I pray that he has re-
pented, & seen forgiveness, & that the soul of the other man
has not been lost, but those who occasioned the diffi-
culty may be accountable for it. If I get to heaven I will
not be happy there without my darling husband. I hope to
die before him. I wish never to be without him in this
world. I believe he still loves me dearly, & if I go first he
will be so anxious to be with me again; that he will con-
form to all the requirements of scripture, proof to the
world he is a Christian, & we will spend eternity toge-
ther. How this time I intend to work out my own sal-
vation with fear & trembling, trusting to the mercy
of God, & the death of my Saviour to save my soul.
I love my husband more than ever. but I am sorry
for him, that the struggle of his life to save the Uni-
on has been unsuccessful.

I have been married 31 years, & it seems like a very short
time for the love I bear my husband. I still look young
younger than any lady of my age I know. I am about
48 or 49 years old. I have had 7 living children, two
still born & 4 miscarriges; so have been 13 times
pregnant; my first child was a daughter still born;
born 15 months after marrige, the 2^d a son born 11 months
after named W^m Hayne, he is now, or will be in June 29 years
old; he is single; has no fancy for ladies; he graduated at
the Furman University in Greenville, at the age of 17.
then went to the So. Ca. College at Columbia, & remain-
ed until it broke up, in consequence of a rebellion