Diary

Thu Jan 26 '89

Sunny around 70. 39-50 Seattle.

6:30 ----. Funny dreams. silly. Still hitting around ideas ~ shorting.

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Construction next door. Very noisy, so be on my way.

7:45 Oatmeal. Go see Bear Mountain. Cold, windy. Used to be Gold Mine. Busy already. $32. No night skiing. Closed at 4 pm. Just went last Thurs w/Ben

8:30 Postcards. Postpone Dr. Hill.

9:00 Off to see Baldwin Lake. Dry; but drive further & see view of desert to east. Sweeping. Drive back on North Shore Drive. Wonderful. Two boat ramps. Not very populated. Big lake. Take pictures. Gorgeous. Solar observatory.

10:15 Leave lake & drive back. Great mtn views.

11:15 Look for lunch in San Bernadino. Bob's Big Boy

12:00 Leave for LA. Not an ugly drive except for the part whwere I turned off to 15. And LA was hectic too. Half hour on La Cienega due to traffic due to maint'ce. Misc planning

1:30 -----

2:00 Get ready & go to gym. Get coffee since I feel a bit spacey.

2:30 Legs workout. Ok, but warm, so I take shirt off and Anthony esp nice to me. Even said my abs were too much for him. I felt awkward since I have date w/Peter but coffee & lack of J/O discombobulated me. Besides, there were other hot guys there. Had to run out to car once & got feeling that Anthony was waiting for me later. Maybe he was being put up to it...Well I wasn't rude, not burning bridges. New paranoia. Caution.

4:30 But horny so sauna. Nice looking body but hair too long & doesn't clip pubes. So head to Mondrian, screwed around.

5:00 J/O. Ah...Back to earth...

-----And Tony's young kid. But be nice.

5:15 Call Peter. Will come ~ 7 pm. Several interesting WSJ stories.

6:15 ----. Call Jorge Happy Birthday.

7:00 Peter comes by. Looks good...Huggable. But it's always so awkward hugging short guy, can't kiss 'em at the same time. At least socially I felt comfortable. Head to Firenze, near La Brea & Melrose. Peter smoked quite a bit this evening. Passed a couple of parking spaces while looking. Nice conversation, and Gnocchi & Chiante. But it didn't seem really meaningful & close. Family, Syracuse

9:15 Drive up Outpost, past his old house. Lover died....

Spectacular view on Mulholland. Lights. Back to his place & he had already put logs in the fireplace. Tracy Chapman, new CD. Very virile. Hunky butt & legs. Great scratcher & massager, both of us. He had his whiskers. Wonderful. Good delicate kisser. Great smile.

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I don't know when we fell asleep

Fri Jan 27 '89

Sunny. High 60's. Seattle Cloudy 50

7:00 I was wondering what I'd gotten out of the evening with Peter. Thinking about meaning of relationships. SF ones seem much closer but maybe that is a good reason to live in LA. Again, as wish most LA relationships. I didn't feel really close to PEeter.

7:30 ----- Get up. He even bought milk for my cereal! Says he can't wait till he can entertain again. I don't know why but this strange disonant chord in me. I don't, but Bob Br does, but he never talks about it. He just does it...

He drives me back to Mondrian.

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10:00 Call SF PSE. Now viewing gallery of options trading floor, but only equity floor. West LA Library doesn't have this week's Infoworld yet.

10:15 Read Barron's Roundtable. Some interest. And some talk of shorting even! Read up to page 23 (about 10 pages, or half) about economy & general investment, up to point where they start to discuss stock picks. Will they say what to sell, or short?

10:45 -----

1:00 Go to WHAC & eat lunch. Good food. Read Barrons (rest of article). There were ideas to short...And it continued to be a juicy bit of reading.

3:00 Try Jorge. Busy. Try later. See if Anthony is around. Instructing. Tony put hand out to my way and I clutch save ended up hug me. Shower. Coffee. Pickup from Wed in Vanities. Pg 175-185. Sort of waiting for Anthony, since he left yesterday at 4:30. But why wait? Is there something to gain? If not, why wait? Also called Jorge again. What to do? And found I can do SF for $90 Sat or Sun and return to SEA 1st cl is $30 less from SF...

4:30 Leaving, saying bye bye to Tony

Sit in car & think.

5:00 I've never scouted LA for place to live as I have in SF, so do so awhile. East to La Brea, between Santa Monica & Wilshire. Decide that south of Beverly is not for me. 3rd, 6th, Wilshire. Concentrate on areas between

Sunset

Santa Monica

Melrose

Beverly

Mostly residential houses, with tpole in bkyard. And I want low maint, high security, so concentrate on Apts in that area sometime.

6:00 Dark so go get laundry.

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7:00 Dinner at Panda Cave. Finish Ch 7 Bonfire. SF would add only $60, but why go?

Not for Pac Stk Exch really.

Possibly to see S. Beach Development. Other reasons not to live in SF obviate this reason.

Bruce & other friends

Hero.

Easier reentry to Seattle.

But where to stay? Do I need it now?

8:30 WSW

9:00 No need for place in LA until I can clearly foresee the need & the time. Call Jorge. Consider when to go home! Realize this shorting idea to generate cash, but not taxes could alleviate tas home base promise of roxying, so I can do much more in LA.

10:30 Out to Cheers, Gold Coast, Refious, Eagle, Cheers pretty quiet. Good walk.

11:45 To bed.

Sat Jan 28 '89

High clouds 60s

7:30 ----- J/O. Plan tonight, tomorrow. Eager to return to Seattle to see if my presumptions about shorting are correct, before I get carried away by implications. Decide about tonite

Not go on date with Anthony - great shoes, no clothes.

Not go out by self - did so last wknd.

So perhaps Jorge. (Go to gym & call 'em.) Wrote other ideas on work, gay life.

9:45 -----

10:15 Go to gym. Good chest workout. Say cute guy, but he's too short for me, and not talkative, at all. Due to J/O, it felt much more pleasant to workout. Nice chat with Jorge. Told him I'm indecisive.

It'd be so tough to meet someone

tall enough

lean enough

friendly enough, but not too

hairy enough, but not too

smart enough, but not too

handsome enough, but not too

rich enough,

secure, but not too

legs that are muscular enough

nonsmoker

It's just so unlikely, so why pursue it. If I find something, great, but spend time on it. And most don't fill the bill completely, so it's hard to back out...

12:30 Saw Anthony, looking terrific! But he has to work to 9:00. Another negative if he were to be close friend, but please I'm being so presumptuous

1:00 Lunch. Start Ch 8 Vanities. Decide no SF. Even seeing Bruce or Bobb. I'd want place to stay. Can't do Beck's. No other needs, to go to SF. But when to go back to Seattle? I feel like I'm quiescent vis a vis WHAC. OR good to get settled in Seattle on Sunday. Yet it'd be strange to return tonite. Read glossary of ATIM. Maybe do Silverlake & [?] or Probe. Go home tomorrow afternoon. Finish glossary. Jorge called. Make notes on what to do ~ shorts. Just do 'em to have experience as w bonds. So all done with ATIM, first pass.

4:15 Look at week before LA Fri 13-20th. Privacy & how LA could fit into routine. Should I do strategy here, given short sell idea? And just do admin in Seattle. And think about trips in 83, 84, 85, 86. Maybe stop in SF on way up to Sea for "rotation." Realize how borrowing stock to sell is sort of like borrowing cash, for money in account! Instead of paying interest, I amy pay capital loss. But it has chance to be a gain...

6:15 ----

Write postcards.

7:00 Jorge shows up with bottle of champ. Drink half of it and go to Ghengis Chen. Pretty busy. Good we can early. OK conversation. Pleasant time. No drinks with dinner. Talk about Dick & Pat, indiv & relationship. Back to hotel. Finish champagne. Change clothes. I had wear tired old outfit to Silverlake anyway.

To Gauntlet. Hunks. Very tall ones too. I got little attention though from the ones that interested me. 7-up & wine & wine.

11:15 To Detour. Pretty shabby crowd, except for one with receding hairline, talking to old guy. I felt he looked a bit like Bruce Placko. Great body under his "BAD BOY" T-shirt. 7-up.

To One-Way. Almost right away, the guy with the great chest & small abs who said I look great "without Tshirt at least" last spring, came over and we talked. He was oily. Sort of nice to talk with. But dull. John. Owns yogurt stores in Arizona. Doesn't work. Had a couple small glasses of wine. 7up. Also met English guy with a great body for someone who is 48 years old. Bobl. Later John said he can't stand Bob (why?). Jorge was getting no attention. He left. I snuck out without saying good bye to John. How can someone not work? Skinny legs too. But he was tall at least...

By myself, I went back to Gauntlet. Drank half glass of wine. Feeling how short everyone is, and how awkward they'd be to hug. And how skinny I am next to some hunks. Hot characters but no one for me, no one looking at me. It didn't bother me. I was having fun just exploring. Swing by Detour, just to make sure I know how to find it. Zip. Worst of 3.

2:00 Closing time. Drive by One Way just to test my sense of location.

2:15 Check out Probe. Get new 1989 card. Great music. Fun just for that. Lots of 7-up & water. Feeling fine. Had some weak dope which got me to ask gy from P. Sp. Big Boy (Bob) brkfst to dance. "NO" He said it was not great New Years. All they did was COCAINE all night.

3:30 Leave to go home. Not too late. J/O with confused "Dopey" thoughts.

4:45 A bit tough to sleep. But I guess I get 3 hours of sleep. Maybe 4 hours.